If he could just disappear, if he could just leave and never look back, how much happier would everyone be? How much happier would everyone be if he never existed? How funny would it be if he fell asleep and never woke up and the world forgot about him. Bendy was just something for them all to pity.the worst kind of sympathy.īendy pulled a pillow up to his face and buried himself in it. They all probably wanted him out, they all were just humoring him for the sake of being nice. He was such a fool, what was he thinking, they all probably hated him. Everyone would move onto a better meal once that ate him all up. What a fool he was, thinking that Boris was any different, the grass is always grayer, and Bendy was only an appetizer. Stars above Bendy should’ve expected this! It was bound to happen, it always happens. They could all pack up and leave, just like Boris did. Felix just had to be disappointed in him, had too, there was no other option in that. If Boris was gone, who was next, Alice, Holly? Maybe they’d realize he was a schmuck too. What a fool I was being around that demon! I should’ve left sooner!Īnd if even Boris didn’t bother saying goodbye, if even HE didn’t want to be around Bendy, what does that say about him? It was only a matter of time now, Bendy could practically feel it. Must be really nice, so much better than him, so much safer, stars above Bendy could just hear the laughter now!

Who aren’t all murderers, who aren’t all bad, who don’t have a natural need for cussing bloodlust. That doesn't manipulate you, or use you, or try to kill you for power. Wonder what that was like, being part of a race of people that are accepting. He deserved this, Bendy knew he deserved this. You don’t trust us, and Boris can do no wrong.īecause he didn’t care that he could have gotten the lot of you killed. He’s nearly 15 Bendy, he needs to start growing up.īut apparently you’re just like him. Boris was just a kid, who was Bendy to stop him, why hold such a thing against him? Stars above he knew he should’ve let it go. He must have cussed up, maybe he was too cold, maybe he was too distant. No stop, but it didn't, the sobs kept coming. Boris left, the person that never feared him, gone. After everything, he was alone, no one was coming back. “ Stop- “ Bendy practically choked, “come back…” like anyone could hear him, no one could. Hic come on Bendy don’t start now, you look pathetic. Not like they had lived with each other for years, grown up together, not like Bendy had given his whole life to him. Not like he left without saying goodbye, not like Bendy hadn’t tried to make amends. Not everything had to involve him, it was Boris’s life not his. This is stupid, absolutely stupid, he shouldn’t be crying, he should be joyful. Without him.īendy’s face felt hot, his vision grew blurry as he held back a helpless sob. Why else would he feel this way, he shouldn’t be sad Boris was gone, he should be elated, His brother was off to be happy. There it was again, that word, that had to be it. “I’m fine.” Like he had any other choice, of course he was fine. Boris was happy, so excited to finally meet someone who really knew him, Bendy should be happy for him. Boris was happy.Īnd if Boris was happy then of course Bendy had to be happy, that’s how it worked. “It’s fine…” Bendy muttered himself, stars above he felt cold, was it always this cold? Maybe he was just nervous, but what was there to be nervous for, everything was well. He’d look at his ‘brother’ and turn around and never look back. And when Boris came back? He’d realize how lousy Bendy really was. This was good, this was okay.īendy turned his head to face the now empty twin bed, Boris had a real family now. Someone who wasn’t a danger to him, to everyone, just by existing. So much better than him even compared to everything Bendy gave up for the wolf. Someone to take care of him, someone who wasn’t a demon, someone so much better. It shouldn’t hurt, Bendy should be happy, he should be happy that his little bro had a family. Cuphead would keep a close eye on him, he’d promised, but at the same time- why did this hurt? If Bendy got to learn more about demons it was only fair that Boris learned more about wolves.

Boris was learning more and more about himself, this was good, this was okay. No, no it couldn’t be him, this was good. Bendy stared at the ceiling, maybe it was him? So that was it? Call if something showed up, Boris said. Bendy shut the door, a quiet click of the lock and he flopped onto the bed.

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